If I had to choose between you and living 
I would choose you 
And it’s not because I’m suicidal 
Trust me when I say that I love you 
Love you enough to live for you
And through a never-ending maze I chase you 
Ready to play games for you 
I can’t see an escape because these is no escape 
But I don’t need an escape, I got you 
And I’ve lost the ability to breathe since I met you 
But I don’t need air, I got you 
Breathing you in like the nicotine that your lungs are addicted to 
I’m addicted to you 
I haven’t slept in months 
Staying up all night writing poems 
Poems with your name printed on them 
But you don’t read
And I can’t write 
And if I sing 
You can’t hear
And if I dance 
You can’t see
Always an excuse 
For you to run away from me 
Always a choice 
For you not to love me 
If I had to choose between you and living 
I would choose you 
Its maybe because I’m suicidal
My therapist thinks I’m self-destructive 
And I can’t deny that 
Why else would I choose you?